Why Me? Desperate for Answers.

Why Me? Over the years, from the time I was 12, but, the question it is even more important now. Now, if you are a girl reading this, and you go through the same thing I do... please, message me or something, because I feel very alone. Every month (:p Now you know where I'm going) for two days... I get cramps so bad, I can't move, throw up everything in my stomach (even medicine, if I don't take it fast enough) and my legs hurt. I hate it. I feel as though it controls my life. Like today for example. It's my second day, and I had swimming this morning. I got up, and felt ok, and I got ready... then it started to hurt. I took a pill... and waited... and waited. At this point, I was in the locker room at the pool. I couldn't move. It hurt so badly, it took all my will power not to scream. In my head, I beg for someone to shoot me, point blank, so I can end this agony. I had to leave, because I couldn't do practice. I was fine later, because the medicine kicked in, but I felt so angry. I hate that I can't control that. I hate that it dictates my schedule. I HATE it. I just wish I had a magic pill to make it go away. I just want my life back.