Reality vs. Minds

Have you ever been watching a movie with your friends or family, and they are all talking, but you are silent? And you are silent because you are captivated by the movie? And you are desperately wishing you life was like that movie? I have. This usually happens when I watch movies from the 80s. Just tonight I was watching the Breakfast Club, and I kept wishing that my life would be like that movie. And then I realized why. I realized the reason that I so severely wanted to be in that movie was... no one bothered to... really... talk to me. Everyone assumes that I am ok... when I'm not. I'm really not... And I... I... I wish someone did. There is this girl, who shall remain nameless, who had problems. I'm not saying she is making them up or anything... I know she has a hard life... but people (me included) take her aside when she is upset and let her know she can talk to them. All I want is... someone who will do that for me. Someone who will realize that something is wrong and I am hurting inside. Someone who will take ME aside and say "Look, I know somethings up. You can tell me what's wrong." That is all I want. I think people assume that I have a good life and I have nothing to worry about. People assume that because I have a supporting family and friends, that I am ok. They always tell me, when I try to open up, that someone is worse off than me. They say stuff like "At least you have friends" or "At least you have a family that cares for you." And then I want to scream at them! I want to yell "I KNOW! I HAVE HEARD THIS A MILLION TIMES! BUT I STILL FEEL ALONE AND SAD AND SH*T! WHY WON'T YOU LISTEN!?" But I never do. I keep my mouth shut, pretending that what they have said has made me feel better. And I never do. I feel so alone. I feel so unwanted. I feel so tired and sad. I just am...... alone...