Damn Exams

I hate the end of year exams. They are two stressful. I have done 3 out of 6. And science is coming up. I'm kind of freaking out... but I think it will be fine. The exams I'm worried about is Algebra. I don't want to fail the course. I don't want to repeat the course for the summer. I hope I pass. I don't care if I go into Math 10! I WANT to go into Math 10. I'm freaking out!!! I just want to do ok, and its not looking good. I'm not doing well in the class itself, so how am I going to do good under the stress of the exam. This is bullshit.

On a happier note, there is this guy I'm interested in... and he has asked me out to go on a sort of date. I'm really happy. He seems my type. Kind of a badass but sweet and gentlemanly like at the same time. We have a butch in common. Hes really cool and hes a writer!!! :) I'm not sure where its going but, I'm interested. :)

Coming To A Close

Things are coming to a close. Such as the school year. I'm starting exams on Friday and after that I will no longer be a freshman and will be a sophomore-to-be. I am nervous for the exams, but I think I will be fine. Another thing that is coming to a close is some of my friendships with people. My best friend is moving to go to a good school in Denmark. I don't want to loose her, but I know she will be happy in her new school. There are many others. But, this lets new things come in. This summer, after school has ended, I'm going to see my family in the states. I haven't seen them for 2 years. Next year, I am going to be 16. I will make new friends. Plus, I have been so confused with this boy all year, and I have tried to convince myself he is just my friend. I have done this successfully, but still, my heart still sometimes stirs. Turns out he is moving to Shanghai. Yes, I am sad that he won't be around anymore, because he was a good friend... but in him moving, it can let someone else in... whom I have already met, and am interested. See, it's true. When a door closes something else opens. Sometimes, it's a window, sometimes it a giant hole in the wall and sometimes, it's another door. :)   

A Girl's Best Friend.

Everyone says, that a girl's best friend is chocolate. This has become the stereotype. But, while I do love some chocolate once in a while, for me... my best friends (that are objects) are books and candy :). Once a month, for two days, the cramps are ever present. I do take medicine, but sometimes it doesn't work. So, someone reads out loud or I read a book, to help my body relax around the pain and to take my mind off it. Because, after the pain has subsided (because the pill is finally working), I fall asleep. I sleep because, my body is tired after the ordeal it's just been through. And then my dreams are then filled with wonderful dreams, instead of nightmares of pain. The candy comes in, when I'm feeling sad or down, I don't go for chocolate, I go for candy. It's delicious and sweet. I absolutely LOVE it. Plus, I have cravings for sweet things often, so I turn to candy. While chocolate can be sweet, it just isn't the same thing. That is why these two things are MY best friends. :)