A Lot Has Happened

Lots have happened to me. Some good, some bad. Like, School is just school. I still swim in the mornings (5:30, three days a week and then a full day of school... I dare you to try that and see how you survive!) and now, we have rehearsal for the High School Play from 4:00 pm- 8:00 pm. I have very long days. But, I love it. I'm getting along with my friends. It's all good. I have had some issues, which I will explain in a minute... and I have been having boy trouble. It's nothing big. It's just hard. I really like him, and he likes me. But, I think he is scared of rejection. I'll figure it out. But, apparently, he likes it when I sit on his lap ;). I'll figure it out.

As I said before, I have been having some personal issues. Mostly, my head has not been in the right place. Especially in the show. I look at all the dancer girls and I get sad. They are so graceful and pretty and skinny. I'm not fat, I know... I have curves. But, I just wish I was as graceful as them, I feel as though I'm clunky and clumsy. Which is who I am, but it's kind of hard not to wish you were someone else sometimes. I'll be fine... but... I just needed to get it out there.