Images

Image is an important part of our society. Being me, I blend. I'm pretty, but people don't look at me. But, I changed my appearance. As you may know, long/medium hair is in fashion. In my grade all the girls have long or medium hair. Only on girl has short hair, which she dyes. She's a really cool girl and she's very punk. Anyway, she isn't the only one with short hair now. I got a haircut. I have changed my image. Muwhahaha! I really like it. But, damn, I'm going to sick out like a sore thumb! Oh well, people might notice me now. Maybe I'll stop being ShadowGirl and become me. Who knows? But you know what, I don't mind. Yes Image is important, but I kind of don't care. Image is important in the sense that I feel good and comfortable. That is one of the reasons I cut my hair so short. It's easy and fun. I feel good and that is all that really matters :). I'm happy.

Christmas Holidays

It's Christmas time!!!!!! It's such a fun holiday, especially in my family. We have many little wonky traditions. But, I'm not writing this to tell you have great and fun Christmas is in my family... ok well maybe a little. But, I am mainly writing this because I need to say something about Christmas.

Recently, 'YourFavoriteMartian' created a video called 'Santa Hates Poor Kids' http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U_Q2cXLhHhU It is a great video. Anyway, at one point in the video, there is a line that says 'If your a saint, then why did you steel Jesus's Birthday?' And this really struck me. I was looking at the word christmas, and found this. It's CHRIST-mas. There it is, right in the word. Christ. In actual fact, Christmas is supposed to be about families coming together and celebrating the birth of Christ. Even if you are not christian, it's still about getting together and being with family.

Another note I thought I should mention is Santa Clause. Santa has become a symbol for Christmas. But, it wasn't always like this. Before, there was Saint Nicholas. He was a real person who gave presents to the poor. Before Santa, people celebrated Saint Nicholas and then Christmas. Now, I live in Belgium, and the celebrate Saint Nicholas. But, ever since Coka-Cola's invention of the fat, jolly old Santa, everything has changed. I didn't grow up with Santa. I never believed in him. When I say this, most people look at me with pity. But, in fact, I'm in a way, happy I didn't row up with him. It made me realize that family is the most important thing. I used to think Jesus brought us presents. As I got older... I still believe it. It is God/Jesus that give us courage and skill, which get you jobs, which get you money, which enables you to buy presents.

Now, this is not a criticism. This is truly what I think. I just have one tip. If you find yourself wrapped up in some crazy Christmas thing, and you are not enjoying yourself, or you don't find it fun anymore... try to take a step back and look at what is keeping it from being enjoyable. Maybe the best thing is to skip all these crazy parties and just spend it with your family. Trust me, my family has been doing that kind of thing for years, and for us, Christmas is always a lot of fun.

Done and Done

YAY! Finally finished with exams!!!!!! YAHOOOOOOOOOOOO! Anyway, update on boy status... I didn't tell him. I know, I said I would but, I didn't. Plus, I like that he is one of my good friends for now. I don't want to fuck that up, so I'll leave it for now. I think he would like that too :p. But, of course I wouldn't know cuz I'm not a mind reader ;). Now, I'm just gonna kick back and relax :p

P!nk - Raise Your Glass

She missed out the Shadows but, fuck it! It's what she meant XD!!!

Coward

I am a big coward! It's horrible. I like this guy sooooo much and I want to tell him. Twice I have had the opportunity to tell him, and both times, I chickened out! The words are in my throat, but then my vocal chords decide to stop working, so I get no sound out. I'm a big fat coward!!!!! I know I need to tell him. I owe him that... I just need to have some courage. Sadly, I'm running low on courage right now. What with all the exams using up my normal stock... I have almost none left. I need to tell him though... I really need to tell him. And I probably need to tell him tomorrow... cuz I think he is leaving for vacation on Friday, so, I need to tell him before that.

HELP!

This is me!!!!

This is a great song. I'm sharing it. It just shows you how hard it is!

Blind

Well, I'm sitting here... eating a pizza (a full one all too myself), wondering why the guy I like has too be as blind as a bat! We were walking home, and I wanted to tell him that I liked him. I wanted to soooo badly. But the words just wouldn't come out. He was standing there, his mouth set in a half smile, the light hitting him just right, his eyes looking at me with concern. I wanted to just lean in and kiss his cheek at least... but no... something stopped me. I just wish he could see. I wish I could read his mind, and he could read mine. It would make life a lot easier. Or, I wish I had guts, just to tell him! I don't know... I want to just say "Look, I like you. I just think I owe it to you to know. I don't want to ruin our friendship or anything, I just had to get it off my chest." Or something along those lines. But, I have a giant block in my throat. I will tell him eventually... when the time is right.

Boys

He haunts me. It's not fair. He is with me everywhere, in my thoughts... but does he think of me? Well....... I don't know. I'm not a physic. Sometimes I wish I was. But, seriously, who would care about me like that? Especially a boy like him. Like my namesake, I'm a shadow. I wish I could know. I'm going to tell him hopefully today. But, I'm sooooo nervous. I have never done this kind of thing before... Oh well, wish me luck...

Background

Well, everyone, here is a little background about me, your one and only Shadow Girl. I am a girl, but I'm not a girly girl. I lean more towards the tomboy side :p. I have a twin brother and a little sister. I love my family, even my parents. Our family laughs a lot, and I can tell my parents anything. I have had rough patches in my life, especially last year... Not sure how I got out of that one alive, but obviously I did :). I'm a strong Christian, but I don't believe in pushing my faith onto others. I'm planning on being an actress and then a teacher. When I'm an actress, I won't be a shadow, I will be center stage! I love my friends and have crushes like normal girls :D! Well, that's pretty much it! :) That's what you need to know about Shadow Girl :p

Exams

Ahhhhhh, exams. So nice of you to come around.... now f*** off! Gah! I hate exams!!! They are too stressful! I have 6 exams I have to do. 6!!!!! Even the word is stressful. Why can't they call it something fun? Of course, I have a schedule that I'm following for studying.... The up side to this week is, a guy I like walked me home... and I think he likes me too. Well, back to studying!