UG! Man, today sucked! PEOPLE SUCK! Kids, if you have the chance between being a 5 or 6 year old forever, or growing up... choose to stay a kid. People tend to suck when they get older. GAH! I AM PISSED OFF! It's even worse where I am. My school is full of kids who are well off. I'm a scholarship student and I at least practice something called humanity. I am so mad at this one girl, who is supposed to be a close friend of mine. I really want to say this to her:
"Did you have time enough to study for the somewhat non important 10th grade midterm exams, bitch? Well, guess what. FUCK YOU! I AM DONE WITH YOU! YOU HAVE TURNED INTO UN UNGRATEFUL LITTLE SNOB! JUST LIKE THE REST OF THEM! Yea, remember me? I'm the girl who actually liked you for you and THOUGHT you were amazing!!! Remember when we used to say "It's us against the World?" Or have you forgotten? Who was there when the whole Nick thing happened, and who was it that was over at your house contently and let you rant and pour your feelings out, without ever complaining EVEN THOUGH she was going through shit too? It wasn't Anne Katherine, or Sylvia Oh yea, IT WAS ME! I honestly cant take it anymore. If you want to screw you life up and fuck everyone else over, be my fucking guest. I'm just not going to be there when your twisted world crashes around you. Now you know, I'm not going to be there to pick up the pieces anymore. And maybe you never felt you needed me. But, I wish you some FUCKING luck to find another person who will do that. Your gonna need it."
I REALLY want to say this to her... but, I can't. I'm too much of a nice person. I have no idea what to do with her. And I really wish I could help... but I can't. I don't know what to do, and I don't have the energy for it anymore. I would love to stay her friend... but not when she is acting the way she is. I liked the sweet pippa better. I like the Pippa who used to laugh with me and who used to come to my house all the time and who just generally gave the feel that she genuinely liked me. I don't have a lot of people in my life like that at the moment.
